I'm a little intimidated to do something like this, to be perfectly honest. I have only really ever written for school- or for my own journals- and I'm kind of worried to put my writing out there. Part of me does think though that it's pretty much the same as writing in a journal because of my doubt that anyone will see this, with this being just a speck on the internet- kinda. Does that make sense?
Anyway, here's my position right now. I'm in college, and honestly and truly I'm having a really good time! I've had my run of it the past couple of years, and when I first began some time ago I didn't do so well. Lately though it's been really fruitful, and I've honed a ton of skills. I feel pretty good about the progress I'm making- 1 I like to think of myself as an optimist. I will say though, I sometimes feel a little lost. Sound familiar to anybody? Everyone has their own journey, and right now mine feels really open ended. I'm conflicted- on the one hand, it feels really good to not be able to see what's ahead. I've been in positions where for instance I was in a rut, and all I could foresee for myself was more, well, rut-ness Right now, I don't "foresee" any troubles in the coming year. Oh yeah happy new year! As I'm writing this it's January of 2025. You know, It's a nice feeling to start of the year with this sense of security, but I will say, while I don't fret for my future, I know the good things I would like to have happen to me this year aren't just going to "happen to me". I think that there are some really good things that could come out of this year but those things are not going to happen unless I have a hand in helping them to happen. For example, with my music, I know there are opportunities to put myself out there to others, to finally have something out on a notable platform with my name on it. Progress! But it's not just going to happen, like I mentioned; the album isn't going to just be released. I would want to work on it so eventually it can be.
It's winter break right now, and I've been really taking it easy. Eating, sleeping, and playing video games- the early 20's dream! And that's the thing, I have the opportunity to really take it easy considering my position in life- and the fact that come the semester i'm going to be BU SY!That's really it honestly I just want to relax knowing that I will have to put in some WORK. It's all fun though! How else do I grow?
That's why, I guess, I want to start writing. I have always liked to write, but I've never made it a hobby. I do suspect though that it is a good skill to practice if I have the chance to. And I also like the idea of being able to work my thoughts out on a platform like this. Perhaps I'll have something to look back on- the best part of being a creative, in my opinion, is being able to behold your own mind baby.
Anyway hello talk soon bye!
